~wrote this in the library~
I feel horrible and terrible right now...i felt like a TOTAL loser...haizz...I SUCKED big time....
AND the BEST part and the FUNNIEST is......that when i went thru my contact list, I realize that i have no one to talk to...
AM I TOO GREEDY??
wat I want is ONLY a listener, a person to depend on or rather...a c0mpany...i need not more than this...
my life is DAMN GREAT n WONDERFUL...I felt so weak and helpless now...i Dont wanna appear weak and vulnerable...God,help me...I duno what should I do...or rather...what my facial expression should be and what should i do now.....
The End =The Beginning?
It feels like yesterday was the end of my JKM posting...
but unfortunately....
I gotta say....it's gonna be the beginning of my next posting..
haizz...i dunoo wat emotion shud I hav now..or rather shud I portray now...damn blurr...and so-damn-pek-chek...haizz...wat shud i do?
any1 plan to tell me?i suck BIG time....and im so-damn-FUCked-off rite now...*oopsiee*
oh-my-hell...hahaha....i wish myhell wud hav know...lol....
talking about "the end"...it reminds me of fairy tales...where they always have the word"THE END"..they always hav to live happily ever after,do they???such a LIE....contaminating the mind of the young...lol...
~THE END~
The E.N.D
It's finally the end of my 1st posting, "Medicine n Society"...
Overall, it's not dat bad...After all, it's well-known as the so-called "honeymoon posting"...
well....It's not all dat sweet actly...kinda lik "dark choc posting"..haha..it's bittersweet...cz there's a lot of reports(i mean TONNES of them) n surveys to do...fun but tiring, filled with arguments (or rather some ppl juz lk to shout at others), laughter (urmm....at least, my gang did~), sunshine (it's really hot there) n rain(at d last week,at last it RAINS)..haha...
ANyway, fUn ALWAYS...i mean ike ALWAYS----> HAVE TO END~
yuppss...it's the end...n im on a holiday now...well, a short2 one...better than none...rite??teehheee~
but my fears are coming BACK to me now...
haiz..ya,u heard it RIGHT~~
THEY ARE BACK...f**K..
