break,broke..well,im broken...

it had been ages since i last type sometng here...
eventhough i STILL checked on new post here n there daily
..yes..
i still enjoy peeking n stalking on ppl..
...hahaha....too bad.. :P

ermm...so why havent i post sometng??
had i been extremely busy dat i cudnt find tyme to write??
or had i lost my interest in blogging??
..hmm..

i dun knw
really

it's not dat i ve been hardworking last sem..
in fact, i ve been extremely lazy compared to 3rd yr..
..to d extent dat...
well,only God knws...
*nobody really believe me when i said i dun stdy...f*ck them*

hmm...mayb i jz lost interesst in my surrounding...
i had been extremely sad prev sem...
in fact,this sem too..
cz i've lost too much this 2 sem...
i've been extremely sad to d extent dat it hurts to think abt it or evn when im typing this..
i ve lost him,her,her n EVN her
it's painful
it hurts

y DONT u ppl jz take a knife n stab me instead??
it might be less painful this way..
less suffering too..


i guess sometimes in life..
the more u'r afraid of losing some1,the more likely dat u do..

i did...im afraid of losing them..
but oways in d end,i ll end up losing them..
i feel lk im dying inside soon..
mayb evn someday i died in my room n nobody wud evn find out..
or mayb they wud...when my body rot n filled wt maggots..