It's all over now...but again...is it OVER??

finally...it's ALL over...

i guess...
every nightmare have to come to an end...
or will it?
somehow or rather i have a bad feeling that it's coming back to HAUNT me soon...

will i be STRONG enough that time??
or will i be as fragile as before...
feel so vulnerable suddenly...
damnit...


i'm not feeling alright-not at all...
but my brain and mind is asking me to be happy...
or AT LEAST-fake it,gal!
i know i have to fake it...
my smile,my laughter and my gesture...what-so-ever...

but some pieces of my heart is not here with me... and it hurts whenever i fake a smile....