Friends?

What can i say?

When u grew older,u'll somehow realise that "a friend in need,is truly a friend indeed"

*the thing is...can u find urself one?*

I somehow think this is so true..hmm..at least..recently..

I realise that when u're happy,smilling,laughing & having fun,every1 wanna be frens with you..

But...once,ur down in the drain..well..no matter physically,mentally or evn spiritually...

They would leave you..one by one...finding their own new world..new friends..

WHoeVer toLd u thaT frIendS ARe fOrever,chances are...thEy are LYING...

me?i?myself?

sometimes u pretended to be someone u r not

sometimes u pretended to be stronger when u r not

sometimes u pretended to care less when u care a lot

and...then...sometimes u lost track n went off track...when u started to think that the person u pretended to be is the person u should be...

yOu're sEriousLY a LOSER (YsL/LSY)

D: she fucking HATES u~ u r such a BITCH~

A:well..she have her own life...

D:u r just BuGGING her lyfe...when r u going to grow up and have ur own lyfe??!

A:she's just busy..

D: ur PLAIN PATHETIC~canT u see it??

A:u just need to brush up ur social skill...mayb a bit...

D:she's gOnnA b PKDC no.2 n ur gonna b outta frens n dun worry...nOBODY CAREs~

A:hmm....welll.... (D kinda win this tyme...sorry...outta excuse for u....)

it?

...day by day...

...it passed by...

... every beat it goes...

...every second it moves...

...i could feel it taking over n conquering my body..

..but..

...i could not help myself but to ask...

did it took care of my mind n soul too??

running away...

..im running home again..

...sumhow im feeling real lonely this week...

...i'm impressed on how i manage to smile n laugh with those ppl that hurt me so deeply this whole week...

im afraid of

loneliness

so,i chose to be alone

im afraid of

losing

so, i chose to give up

im afraid of

being ugly

so,i chose to dress up

im afraid of

height

so, i chose to stay where i am

im afraid of

being myself

so, i chose to hide myself~

omg...im so fucking poor now..haiz..

somehow,i felt very dpressed whenever this happen...

(n it happens all the tyme)

cz,..its all my fault...d2 my dearest money-wasting-habit;..

some1 plz help me~~~~

irony of life

it's funny how d person u wanna meet the most is also the person ur afraid to see as well

perhaps love...

..perhaps..

love aint fairy tale

..perhaps..

love aint drama we watched

...perhaps...

it wasnt as sweet as i thought

but i chose to believe it

perhaps thats y i wont find my happy ending or even my mr rite

fairy tales always end with.."n they lived happily ever after"..

is there "ever after"??

is there happiness waiting for us??

i wonder

..often..

..lil too often...

how does it felt like to love some1 so dearly??

i dont knw

or maybe

i dont wanna know

*period*

jz bcz i din die...ermm...so,im lying??

fine

myb

*my heart is hurting so much i cud not contain it anymore*

i find it difficult to breath..

i find it difficult to talk...

i find it difficult to eat...

i find it difficult to sleep...

if dying is an option

y cant i take it?

can any1 tell me how dpress can u be before u end ur lyfe?

...anxiety struck me again...

ya ya ya

it's aLL my fault...

cry aso no use:((

haPPy cnY ppl

it's d seconD daY of cnY buT i'm feeLing extremely dePressed

i diN stDy a sHIt n i haVe exaM on MONDAY~~

i LOOK like crazie gal now..hahaha...

feel like crying

i mean like

SUDDENLY

is there anythng im worried off subconsciously??

is there anytng im sad about??

or mayby

should i be feeling worried??

should i be feeling sad??

i dunoo...

...i guessed u had really grown up..

dont you??

...oh my...

...once upon a tyme... ur just so lil...

...once upon a tyme... u need my help in everything...

but now..u're all grown up...

n how i miss it when ur small n lil...

ps:im not talking abt my son..hahahahhaa...

everytime i see you

everytime i hear yr voice talking to others

it simply remind me that u hate me

it simply remind me that i'm hiding my sadness...my tears...my feelings

it's like some1 took off the bandage that is concealing my wound

a wound that i hope i dint know of its existence...

this must be the longest write-up i've ever done

cz i did it for 2 bloody years

boo sharon~~~