A Lil World Of My Own...: family affair

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..spEciaLLy deDicatEd tO u..

...u sAid daT nO oNe unDerstaNds u...

...i meAn iM nOt pIcKing sidE...

...i uNderStanD ur circUmstANces...
...bUt u sHud asO unDersTand oTheR ppL's thOughtS asO...
...i mEan diFFereNt peOple haVe diFFereNt prIority...
...d0n'T u gEt it??...
...d ThinGs i SaId iS nOt tO hUrt u oR to SHoW daT wHo's wRoNg & wHo's riGHt...
...iS daT i ThInk daT i sHud tEll u daT...
...sOmetiMes tO dO soMetHng,thEre's maNy waY oF aPProaChing...

...iF i dUn caRe,i wUd jUst shUt my daMn mOuth...
...bUt iF u wAnna InterPreT iT daT waY,i cOulD do ANytHinG...

...dO waTevA u wAnTla...

p.s.::i LovE u...

bad mornink...

sleep late last nite due to insomnia..damn...

at last,after loads of effort..i managed to fall asleep last nite..

tho i slept for a short period of time,i stil can be haunt by bad dreamm...
my brain so efficient la...d*mn..

i woke up feeling sad n down..
i feel so bad dat i felt like breaking down n cry my heart out..
but i din do so..i guess..being in medic 4 5 sems make my teargland malfunction..
*good or bad sign??i cant decide..*

there's nobody to talk to...i feel lik blogging so bad... but i hav class with mrKhalid at 9 and i hav to clerk a patient in Surgical 2..no time to spare..so i jz gt ready n hav my usual oat...i cant even fake a smile at dat time...*pathetic*

i walk n walk n walk...my mind is still on dat dream i had jz now...

guess wat i dreamt??

i dreamed of my mum...not a gud dream...

*in d dream*

my mum adopted a small boy..my lil bro tol me about it n i was shocked n went to check out dat matter...i confronted my mum n she showed me my-brand-new-lil-bro...his back was filled with several scars..it seems dat he's abused..n sumhow,he looked a lil lik a Down synd kid...n to my surprise,my mum had adopted dat boy illegally..i was worried about my mum..i tol her dat it's illegal to do dat...but she's reluctant to listen to me...i felt weird n asked her y wud she do dat??(i hv 6 siblings)...she said dat...

ALL OF US HAD IGNORED HER n SHE NEEDED COMPANY N HER CHILDREN...

n tis make me sad n depressed...

i was speechless...

*end*

In the lift...

As i walked into the lift, a couple of kids enter the lift with their dad...The dad asked the eldest boy who was pressing the buttons to wait for awhile...A few seconds later, an old lady entered the lift with a 'tongkat'...a little boy was walking beside her...

That old lady thanked the man for waiting for them and she complained to him that kids nowadays are so naughty and mischievous.She can't hit him anymore as he is older now n he's not scared of her beating anymore...the man just smiled and nod his head..

After he reached his floor and went out of the lift,the old lady began to scold the little kid but he just ignored her..As the lift is approaching my floor,i can hear dat she told the boy that she's not gonna 'mandikan' him...haha...

But,as i stepped out the lift,i felt sad and was so jealous of the small boy as he still have his grandma to care for him,scold him and bathe him...i tried to hold back pearls of my tears as i walked back to my apartment...i missed my grandma so much and this scene will never happen in my life ever again as she had passed away when i was in form 1...

she is one of the most important women in my life...i loved her so much and i would never stop loving her til my last breathe..everything that reminds me of her would surely bring tears to my face...

i often wished that she was here with me, to accompany me to face this life,to remind me when i did wrong and to let me lie on her lap when i feel sad...

I did not even have the chance to tell her that i love her dearly and that she is the reason why im the person i am today...n most of all,I wanted to ask you-ARE YOU PROUD OF ME ??

i'll loved you til my last breathe...