...MerRY bElateD xMas..
..hope that u had had a joyous 1..

...baCk to dA baSics...

...back t0 whEre i alwayS feel beLong...
...whEre i doN'T get ouT unLess neCessary...
...whEre ppL doN't judge mE...
...whEre theY lOVE me as wHo i R:E:A:L:L:Y am...

...i escape jail at last...

...ya...
...there's a WANTED prisoner had just recently escape jail...
...at about 11.00 am today morning...
...she climb the wall with all her strenght...
...ya...
....she fell a lil in her way out....
....bleed a lil...hm...ok...a lot...
....cry some...ok...FINE....a lot too....
...but she FOUGHT her way out....

...NOW SHE'S OUT...

::WARNING:BEWARE PEOPLE::

::haPPy 2010...haPPy 1sT anniveRsarY::

...weee...
...it'S neW yeaR...
..it's 2010...
...izit to0 late to makE few nw Year res0luTion??...

..guess not kowt...
...hmm...
...at least i h0pe so..

...nway...
...let's keep it shoRt n swEEt...

...1st...
....h0pe tat thinGs g0es well...

...2nd...
...bE a beTTer me...

...3rd...
...pUt m0re effOrt...

...4th...
....gr0w uP...hmm..i mean...emotionally n maturIty...

...lasTly...
...h0pe t0 find my prince CharMing so0n...hahaha....

..oya...
...haPPy annIversaRy t0 my bl0ggie...

.update...

...it's been s0 l0ng sinCe i laSt updaTe my bLog...
...beeN a Lil bZy laTely siNce it'S o&g...
...hmm...
...eVrythNg is s0 nEw n bLur...
...tireD evRydaY...
...buSY evRyday...
...i duno...

...kla...

...MERRY CHRISTMAS...

...eNdiNg is aLsO a NEW beGinning....

...tiS is d eNding of mY surGery p0stIng...

..i duNo i Shud B hAppY or SaD..

...happY cz i kinDa suRviveD 1 moRe poSTing...

...BUt iT alsO meaNs daT iM 1 sTep cLoseR to 0&g...aka...dePartment oF oraNg2 gaRang...

...y iZit d m0st scaRY posTing iN d 3rd yEar??...

...hmmm..well...
...besIdes d LonG houRs...
...d ScaRY nUrses...
...d WarDr0unDs...
...d oNcaLLs...
...d wOrkloaD...
...d lEctureRs daT love tO maRah stUdent...

...it'S aLso d p0sTing wiT d HIGHEST failuRe raTE...
---->hEnce,iM liKe deAdmeaT...


...hoWever,it'S noT aLL bad...

...cZ o&g asO meaNs BABIES...wee~
...1 goOd reaSon 4 me t0 LOvE o&g...
...n HopeFullY cOuld maKe me stRong enuF t0 suRviVe tiS p0stIng...

~pRay 4 me ppl~

it feels so so long since i last updated my post...
....haha...
...padahal it was jz a few days ago...
...tot of lotsa things to write but duno hw to express them in words..

*ok,...i shall think it over n update later ya*

..til then,i shall go 1st...
...cz im supposed to get ready to go out nw...muahaha....n yet...im here typing craps...

~~weeee~~

...r0ck-a-My-tUmmy-oN-thE-trEEt0p...

Menu 4 toniGht: t0mYam stEamb0at...

guesT:Miss Leow n Miss Lee...

Venue:My H0use...

Miss Leow:dun Mess with me while iM eatIng..kakaka....

Miss Leow:dun w0rry...i ll finish eventh0 it TasteD awfUl...

Miss Lee:okie2...come let me hElp u guys for ONCE..hahaha..

whiLe waiTing 4 ouR fo0d to masaK..

hmm...syen yee said gt setapak de feel..hahaha....

nearEr l0ook...:P

syEn y33 help in d c00okingg to0...

thaNk g0d iT's FrIDay!!!

im so so so so glad dat it's FRIDAY~~

cz no teaching on the weekends...lolx..yesss...n d best part is-the next teaching wif him is on WEDNESDAY~~double-yay!!!!

triple YAY~ cz me g0ing out 4 gud fo0d nw...weee~(i deserve tremend0us g00d fo0d this weekend since i've worked hard over d week...i mean...urmmm,...kinda worked hard.muahaha...)

sigNing oFF~

~love~

end of 5th week,....

CHECKLIST OF DID-NOT-COMPLETE LIST....

-know what to ASK in history taking...perfect flow,good dfferential etc etc...
-MASTER all the physical examination...cvs,respi,neuro,abdominal...oya,n aso miscellaneous PE...
-know how to INTERPRET all those basic investigation in the ward...
-READ about ALL the diseases listed in the list in the guidebook...
-complete my CASE WRITE UP...
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and the list GO ON AND ON AND ON......

~found an old pic dat my roomate took drg my 1st year~

2nd week in Internal Med

my 2nd week had just passed..it had been a slow 1...feel rather guilty really...din really had any input at all...been sleeping most of the days as i think i needed good sleep...my heart ady "merajuk" and tis terrifies me...shall try to have good rest no matter what...

as the weeks go by,im starting to think am i suitable to become a good doctor??i cant stand to see my patients in pain and tis put pain in my heart..many of my frens would have a thought in their mind that they dont wanna be a patient in future but...im thinking dat..y wud i nid to b the 1 dat instill pain in these ppl...ya...i noe...tat doc do this for the sake of the sick...but why must i be the 1 dat see this kinda suffering??

The End =The Beginning?

It feels like yesterday was the end of my JKM posting...

but unfortunately....

I gotta say....it's gonna be the beginning of my next posting..
haizz...i dunoo wat emotion shud I hav now..or rather shud I portray now...damn blurr...and so-damn-pek-chek...haizz...wat shud i do?

any1 plan to tell me?i suck BIG time....and im so-damn-FUCked-off rite now...*oopsiee*

oh-my-hell...hahaha....i wish myhell wud hav know...lol....

talking about "the end"...it reminds me of fairy tales...where they always have the word"THE END"..they always hav to live happily ever after,do they???such a LIE....contaminating the mind of the young...lol...

~THE END~

hello my lil blog (*,*")

It's been a long tyme since i last update my blog...been kinda busy lately with all the reports and health survey...tiring...

But,it's kinda fun actly...Experienced lotsa first-time here...It's my 1st time fogging...1st time doing health survey door-to-door(and we often been mistaken as d salemen...lol..)...1st time kena gigit nyamuk like nobody's business...hahaha...n lots more...

nway,i "malas" type d...really tired...later have to go Klinik Kesihatan somemore and complete my family case by mon...sad....

ere's some of my recent pic...

my lil room ere in tg karang...


Kompleks Tg Karang...

Me n jia ying...

Summary....

It's been ages since i last update my blog...d last entry is b4 i went to sarawak...i guess...

So,let's start with my sarawak trip...well...it's my 1st time to sarawak...my 1st time flying on a plane...haha...ya..i noe it's kinda pathetic...but...who cares....muahaha...oya...hav to thank my dad 4 sponsoring my air ticket..haha..though it takes a few days to pujuk him...

i was there for couples of days...stayed in nina's house...her parents was very friendly n was really nice to me...we went to lotsa museums,waterfront,cultural village,few shopping malls..
there,i aso tried lotsa new food...hahaha...all sorta stuff-kolok mee,kampua mee,tomato mee,their version of orh jien,sarawak laksa,mee belacan,bidin,cangkuk manis (aka morning glory..haha),seafood....i even tried keropok made from sago grub...oya...not forgetting my TUAK!!!muahaha...i was damn excited to hav this as i always read about this in my textbook dulu..hahaha...

the sarawak museum...i love this...
after havng my tuak...lol...
tuak....diff year...one is sweeter n d other is bitter...
boat ride along the swak river...scary~~
keropok made of sago grubs...taste kinda normal really...

me n nina...in swak cultural village...
lya,nina n me...in MY restaurant...nice food ere...yummy....
nina n her family...really nice ppl...
me n nin...at my nw found bf's hse...lol...

nway...happy time always need to come to an end...haiz...and eventually,it's time to go bek kl n face my fear-clinical years...

On the 13th of May,we registered in KTDI...n due to my malas-ness to fight for merit,i had to stay in Laman Midah...It wasnt dat bad actly n it's actly quite near to hukm...

Frm 14th to 17th,we had an orientation with a fancy name...lol...so-called-Mnggu Mesra Tahun Klinikal...it's supposed to expose us to clinical years...which i think dont really work on me...as i still feel LOST!!haiz...

and then on the 18th,we went to kuala besut's BTN to have our 2nd PPD camp...it was better than my expectation..lol...maybe coz i already noe most of them...so,it's easier to communicate this time...haha...

after the 5-day-camp,we went back to kl...n on the following monday,we started our 1st posting...mine's d Medicine n Society posting...which all my seniors refer as the honeymoon posting...as tis is the most relaxing posting relatively when compared to our other posting...lol...
the 1st week was just lectures...n lectures...n MORE lectures...haha...it's exhausting to have so many lectures in a day...

n the best part is...

my here now in tg karang...


n im still having lectures...

OMG!!

klah...shall stop here...tired typing d..hahaha....

Clinical is c0ming...damnit...

my holiday is coming to an end soon...

-sad-

din do anything beneficial this holiday...like usual...
hmmm....feel kinda guilty actly...coz there'll be a formative during our orientation...{n i HATE orientation}...OYA....n the thought of dat stupid PPD camp aso make me depressed...

-bertambah sad-

feel so clueless abt clinical...gonna hav panic attack soon...but the more i scared...the more i dun wanna study...darnn....HOW BAD IS THAT??

-another reason to be SUPER sad-