thaNk g0d iT's FrIDay!!!

im so so so so glad dat it's FRIDAY~~

cz no teaching on the weekends...lolx..yesss...n d best part is-the next teaching wif him is on WEDNESDAY~~double-yay!!!!

triple YAY~ cz me g0ing out 4 gud fo0d nw...weee~(i deserve tremend0us g00d fo0d this weekend since i've worked hard over d week...i mean...urmmm,...kinda worked hard.muahaha...)

sigNing oFF~

~love~

stress_fool_week

this week had been so so stressful...hmmm...everyday aso gt teaching...crazie or wat??hmm..i duno...every1 is dying to hav teaching n yet i dun wan teaching...hmm...im a weirdo...damn..help!!

*damn*

shit...spend so many hours to edit my blog...whoppsiee...im supposed to study 4 my teaching 2mro...breast anatomy and also thyroid diseases and phy exmination...but i end up faebooking,blogging and edit d layout...spend so many hours d...im so gona get killed by mr.khalid 2moro...

*slap slap*

*faint*

my 1st coach..

~~~~yay~~~~

i finally gt my 1st c0ach ppl...yay...it's from my sisters..i likeee:P

it's a COACH ALI SIGNATURE SWINGPACK:)

F0revEr 21...now N always...

IM OFFICIALLY 21....

ya..

u hear it right...

me 21 d..

hmm..

yay but no yay....

..lolx....

cz im officially old n responsible 4 myself nw...saya tak mau...hee:P

nways,unlike last year..tis year i did not celeb my bday with my family...my bday was on mon n i end up makan at d stall in front of my hse...n then spend d nite talking on phone n facebooking...sound pathetic huh???haha...i feel pathetic..lolx....n the best part is "somebody" nid to b forced to wish me bday...lagi sad...b0ngok~~ps:izit so difficult to jz say "happy bday"???!!dahlah dun rmmber my bday...stupid dupid...watever....

nway..i did celebrate my bday with my frens...on friday nite at Bumbubali in pucHong...bali-inspired restaurant...nice environment...food was ok..it was me n cch's bday celeb..i duno wat to say about it..hahaha...lets upload sum pic....

me n my bff-bf-hsemate-jiejie..hahaha...


my geli de big bro..hahaha...he still thinks he's lengzai..beh tahan nia...

me n d bday boy...he stil so geli la....

im forced to take pics with him...hahaha...


i duno wat he doing pun..lolx..


nice environment kan??


a piece of cake..


groupie..

i kena bullied dat nite...

the 2nd celebration was on sunday nite...my bday eve...we went sumwer near..in Connought...it was raining heavily dat day...yiqian had sum argument wit d taxi driver...hahahaha....but yet we managed to sampai in 1 piece...lolx..i like d environment there..it's so cute n adorable..haha...we stayed there 4 the whole nite...frm abt 7pm til 11pm..guess wat i did there??hmm..the things i dun like ppl doing..hmm..but since it's my bday..hahaha...so,wat the hell kan??lolx..ya..we drank sum beer n played cards..ya...i actly sentuh cards at last..lolx...hmm..they taught me hw to play cho dai di..haha..n i realize i sucked in it,..hahaha....over all,its a fun galz-nite-out..wee~~

heart shaped de eggiee..haha...sweet...

i duno wat we're doing pun...hahaha...


yiqian kek sai look...lolx...


us againn...

~pout~
us


suwen n me

me n pei yee...


me n bday cake...yummy~


three of us...

gr0upie b4 g0 home...

bad mornink...

sleep late last nite due to insomnia..damn...

at last,after loads of effort..i managed to fall asleep last nite..

tho i slept for a short period of time,i stil can be haunt by bad dreamm...
my brain so efficient la...d*mn..

i woke up feeling sad n down..
i feel so bad dat i felt like breaking down n cry my heart out..
but i din do so..i guess..being in medic 4 5 sems make my teargland malfunction..
*good or bad sign??i cant decide..*

there's nobody to talk to...i feel lik blogging so bad... but i hav class with mrKhalid at 9 and i hav to clerk a patient in Surgical 2..no time to spare..so i jz gt ready n hav my usual oat...i cant even fake a smile at dat time...*pathetic*

i walk n walk n walk...my mind is still on dat dream i had jz now...

guess wat i dreamt??

i dreamed of my mum...not a gud dream...

*in d dream*

my mum adopted a small boy..my lil bro tol me about it n i was shocked n went to check out dat matter...i confronted my mum n she showed me my-brand-new-lil-bro...his back was filled with several scars..it seems dat he's abused..n sumhow,he looked a lil lik a Down synd kid...n to my surprise,my mum had adopted dat boy illegally..i was worried about my mum..i tol her dat it's illegal to do dat...but she's reluctant to listen to me...i felt weird n asked her y wud she do dat??(i hv 6 siblings)...she said dat...

ALL OF US HAD IGNORED HER n SHE NEEDED COMPANY N HER CHILDREN...

n tis make me sad n depressed...

i was speechless...

*end*

disappointment...random....heart...

haiz...im disappointed with everythng around me..

with myself,my life and basically everyting around me..feel so shitty...feel so wrong...but wat's wrong???i duno...no answer...damn...

i dun feel lik doin anythng....

i dun feel like studying...

i dun really feel like sleeping aso.,.

but hv to cz im feeling very2 tired lately..duno y....i even feel a slight pain at my chest...thnk god dat it doesnt radiate to my arm...lolx..

i dunno wats wrong with myself..im worried abt my heart but yet i gt d feeling dat it's jz me being a lil hypochondriac with my condition...i still hav tat palpitation sometime but i dun tell any1 dis time,..scared dat they'll drag me to d doc...n d most important thing is...i dun wan my mum to worry...she's getting so worried abt me sumtims...

i dun evn feel lik calling home nw...unlike lastime wen i nid to call home few times in a week.,.nw i dun even call home once a week..it's not dat i dun miss them..itz jz dat i think d longer i stay away frm home, d less topic i hav with em..it's saddening kan??ya..i noe...n yes...i still love em dearly n tis wud not change 4eva...eventho now dat i realise ppl can be selfish at times..n tis includes ur own sibling...but again...who's not???im not an angel myself...me too hav those time dat i think im selfish...no 1 is perfect..but it stll hurt me...

we're ONLY human....

~xoxo~