倪安東 - Sorry That I Loved You

作詞：倪安東／Skot Suyama
作曲：Skot Suyama

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And Im so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love， for wasting your time

And I`m so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won`t make any difference tonight
But im hopin "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life


Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right （tonight）
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you （I was falling in love）
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn`t turn back time

I`m sorry that I loved you
I`m sorry that I hurt you
I`m so sorry that I loved you
I`m so sorry that I hurt you

I`m sorry that I loved you....

the love note..

...someone once tell me that never wait for others to reward u...
...u ll never know when others is going to do that....
.... but u can always buy urself a gift/pamper urself if u think u deserve it...
...yes..
...y do u have to wait for others do it if u can do it urself??
...nobody is gonna love u if u dun love urself...

...hence....

...reward urself...
...pamper urself...
...love urself...

...cz no one have the responsibility to do that...

the day is coming...

woke up with a heavy and grieving heart yet again...
i saw her again...
i miss her so much...
even after so many years...
yet i was so afraid that someday i would forgot about her...
yet i was so sad if i remmber...

see,hear,tallk

This is already the 6th week of my triad posting...as much as i dislike med skool,i think that tis posting had make me feel rather blessed and grateful that im able to see (fine..with glasses..at least), hear and talk...i guess this is what u feel when u went thru this posting...at least in my case...

i feel so sad when these abilities that all of us had taken for granted might just be the biggest gift someone could give to these children that might not be able to listen to the birds chirping... ...or their mother nagging at them or not able to see and awe at the beauty of the rainbow after an evening rain...

hence, plz do not take what u have for granted bcz u might nvr know when God ll take it back from u...n believe me..those that are able to see, hear or talk is indeed VERY LUCKY...so, be thankful...

break,broke..well,im broken...

it had been ages since i last type sometng here...
eventhough i STILL checked on new post here n there daily
..yes..
i still enjoy peeking n stalking on ppl..
...hahaha....too bad.. :P

ermm...so why havent i post sometng??
had i been extremely busy dat i cudnt find tyme to write??
or had i lost my interest in blogging??
..hmm..

i dun knw
really

it's not dat i ve been hardworking last sem..
in fact, i ve been extremely lazy compared to 3rd yr..
..to d extent dat...
well,only God knws...
*nobody really believe me when i said i dun stdy...f*ck them*

hmm...mayb i jz lost interesst in my surrounding...
i had been extremely sad prev sem...
in fact,this sem too..
cz i've lost too much this 2 sem...
i've been extremely sad to d extent dat it hurts to think abt it or evn when im typing this..
i ve lost him,her,her n EVN her
it's painful
it hurts

y DONT u ppl jz take a knife n stab me instead??
it might be less painful this way..
less suffering too..


i guess sometimes in life..
the more u'r afraid of losing some1,the more likely dat u do..

i did...im afraid of losing them..
but oways in d end,i ll end up losing them..
i feel lk im dying inside soon..
mayb evn someday i died in my room n nobody wud evn find out..
or mayb they wud...when my body rot n filled wt maggots..

...mY 3 weeK stuDy weEk wgich tuRn to hoLiday,,,

it'd been AGES since i last my blog...i haD been reaLly sick,depRessed n stuFF tis sem..it's kinDa funnY hoW thIs firST weeK of my stDy weeK mighT be My haPPiest weeK tis SemeSter...kindA ironic, rEally... :D coz i'Ve beeN reaLLy duo-luO-ing tis weeK...i meaN i shUd be FeeLing guilTy buT im reaLLy HAPPY... muahahahaha.... :P

henCe,i'll think abouT d guilty part next week..heheheheheeeee:)))))

end...

...many things had happen recently...

...suddenly felt dat im all alone now...

m i really a bad person?

...maybe..
...perhaps...
...probably...

...fine...

i am

i oways expected u to understand me...
but, now i realized that...
in the end of the day,u oni think every thng in ur point of view...
i guess me to0 am like u...
ya,so,lets be it...


~the end~