hello my lil blog (*,*")

It's been a long tyme since i last update my blog...been kinda busy lately with all the reports and health survey...tiring...

But,it's kinda fun actly...Experienced lotsa first-time here...It's my 1st time fogging...1st time doing health survey door-to-door(and we often been mistaken as d salemen...lol..)...1st time kena gigit nyamuk like nobody's business...hahaha...n lots more...

nway,i "malas" type d...really tired...later have to go Klinik Kesihatan somemore and complete my family case by mon...sad....

ere's some of my recent pic...

my lil room ere in tg karang...


Kompleks Tg Karang...

Me n jia ying...

Summary....

It's been ages since i last update my blog...d last entry is b4 i went to sarawak...i guess...

So,let's start with my sarawak trip...well...it's my 1st time to sarawak...my 1st time flying on a plane...haha...ya..i noe it's kinda pathetic...but...who cares....muahaha...oya...hav to thank my dad 4 sponsoring my air ticket..haha..though it takes a few days to pujuk him...

i was there for couples of days...stayed in nina's house...her parents was very friendly n was really nice to me...we went to lotsa museums,waterfront,cultural village,few shopping malls..
there,i aso tried lotsa new food...hahaha...all sorta stuff-kolok mee,kampua mee,tomato mee,their version of orh jien,sarawak laksa,mee belacan,bidin,cangkuk manis (aka morning glory..haha),seafood....i even tried keropok made from sago grub...oya...not forgetting my TUAK!!!muahaha...i was damn excited to hav this as i always read about this in my textbook dulu..hahaha...

the sarawak museum...i love this...
after havng my tuak...lol...
tuak....diff year...one is sweeter n d other is bitter...
boat ride along the swak river...scary~~
keropok made of sago grubs...taste kinda normal really...

me n nina...in swak cultural village...
lya,nina n me...in MY restaurant...nice food ere...yummy....
nina n her family...really nice ppl...
me n nin...at my nw found bf's hse...lol...

nway...happy time always need to come to an end...haiz...and eventually,it's time to go bek kl n face my fear-clinical years...

On the 13th of May,we registered in KTDI...n due to my malas-ness to fight for merit,i had to stay in Laman Midah...It wasnt dat bad actly n it's actly quite near to hukm...

Frm 14th to 17th,we had an orientation with a fancy name...lol...so-called-Mnggu Mesra Tahun Klinikal...it's supposed to expose us to clinical years...which i think dont really work on me...as i still feel LOST!!haiz...

and then on the 18th,we went to kuala besut's BTN to have our 2nd PPD camp...it was better than my expectation..lol...maybe coz i already noe most of them...so,it's easier to communicate this time...haha...

after the 5-day-camp,we went back to kl...n on the following monday,we started our 1st posting...mine's d Medicine n Society posting...which all my seniors refer as the honeymoon posting...as tis is the most relaxing posting relatively when compared to our other posting...lol...
the 1st week was just lectures...n lectures...n MORE lectures...haha...it's exhausting to have so many lectures in a day...

n the best part is...

my here now in tg karang...


n im still having lectures...

OMG!!

klah...shall stop here...tired typing d..hahaha....

Clinical is c0ming...damnit...

my holiday is coming to an end soon...

-sad-

din do anything beneficial this holiday...like usual...
hmmm....feel kinda guilty actly...coz there'll be a formative during our orientation...{n i HATE orientation}...OYA....n the thought of dat stupid PPD camp aso make me depressed...

-bertambah sad-

feel so clueless abt clinical...gonna hav panic attack soon...but the more i scared...the more i dun wanna study...darnn....HOW BAD IS THAT??

-another reason to be SUPER sad-

insomnia??

DAMNIT!!!!

Hw can any1 possibly have insomnia drg her holiday??
hmmm...can any1 tell me wat's wrong with me????

~~sob sob sob~~

I wanna sleep la...any idea on hw to treat insomnia??
p.s:i dun wan any pharm-related solutions...hahaha....

fine~~
i din really baring there, thinking abt sheeps...
instead,im thinking abt something i shud hav forgotten long long tyme ago~~
sad~~~sad~~sad~~

Happy Day..

YAY!!
After going for follow-up for so many years,finally,it's coming to an end and i don't have to go for any follow-ups anymore...AND i don't even need to take antibiotics for prophylaxis anymore..double-yay!!!hahaha....so happy o...^^

The Boy and the Apple Tree

Came across a short story just now. I think many people must have had come across this before,like me..But, I think some stories just gives us different thoughts, every time we read it. Love this...

Long ago, near a mountainside, there was a big apple tree and there was a little boy who used to play around it.

He climbed to the treetop, ate the apples.


He took a nap under its shadow.


He loved the apple tree and the tree was always happy to play with him. Many days passed like this.


And the boy grew up. Now he had many friends and he was not very eager to play around the apple tree. When he did not come for many days, the apple tree became sad.


Then one day the boy came. The apple tree was happy and said: “Why don’t you come to play with me now?”


The boy replied: “Now I am grown up. Playing around you does not satisfy me. I want to play with toys but I have none.”


The tree became sad and said: “Sorry, I have no money for them but you can pluck my apples, sell them and buy some toys.” The boy was very happy. He plucked many apples from the tree, sold them and bought many toys.


Days passed by again and for many days the boy did not come to play with the tree.The tree was sad and lonely.


Then again one day the boy came. The apple tree was very happy and said: “Why don’t you come to play with me now?”

The boy, who was now in fact a full-grown man, said: “Now I have no time. I have family. In fact I want to make a house but I have no money.”


“No problem,” the tree said, “Bring an axe and cut my trunk and branches and make a house for yourself.”


So did the man. The tree was very happy and satisfied to help him.

Days passed by. The man did not come to the apple tree for many, many days. Again the tree was missing him. Then one day, the man appeared. The apple tree’s joy knew no bounds. It said: “Why don’t you come to play with me now?”


“How can I? Don’t you see I’ve become such an old man? I have no strength to climb to your top. I have no teeth to bite your apples. My only desire is to travel the world but I have no boat.”


“Worry not,” the tree smiled, “My trunk and branches are once again fit. Cut them and make a boat for you.”

So did the man and traveled the world.

Many days passed by again and the man did not come back to the apple tree. The tree was sad and lonely more than ever.

Finally, the boy returned after he left for so many years. "Sorry, my boy. But I don't have anything for you anymore. No more apples for you..." the tree said. "I don't have teeth to bite" the boy replied.


"No more trunk for you to climb on" "I am too old for that now" the boy said.

"I really can't give you anything ... the only thing left is my dying roots" the tree said with tears.
"I don't need much now, just a place to rest. I am tired after all these years." The boy replied.


"Good! Old tree roots are the best place to lean on and rest. Come, Come sit down with me and rest."And the man slept peacefully.

Now neither that apple tree exists nor that man, but : “That boy was just like any child and that tree was like a parent. Whatever you want, your parents give you just to see you happy and the way the boy treated the tree, perhaps we all treat our parents.”

So, no matter how busy you are,please spend some time with your parents.

It's all over now...but again...is it OVER??

finally...it's ALL over...

i guess...
every nightmare have to come to an end...
or will it?
somehow or rather i have a bad feeling that it's coming back to HAUNT me soon...

will i be STRONG enough that time??
or will i be as fragile as before...
feel so vulnerable suddenly...
damnit...


i'm not feeling alright-not at all...
but my brain and mind is asking me to be happy...
or AT LEAST-fake it,gal!
i know i have to fake it...
my smile,my laughter and my gesture...what-so-ever...

but some pieces of my heart is not here with me... and it hurts whenever i fake a smile....